i crave….

I just want to be a bit numb,
Free from all worries,
screaming in silence.
pushing thumb against bricks,
wishing them to move,
and collapse the roof on me,
To have the pain; to distract my mind.
Inspite of cherishing the happy tagged day,
Wondering why i’m not satisfied.
May be because i have realized,
My life is so cushioned,
Which has started to suffocate me,
Keeping me away from any jerk.
Need some hurting points,
That can trigger my ming to sob,
Release all the toxicity and start with a new view.
Can’t line this mood of mine,
Will lie if tried to justify.
Let me sink in the Pink,
Trying falsely to erupt some High Hopes in me!!